Thursday, January 09, 2014

Quitter

It has been so long since I wrote that I had to re-enter my password and I wasn't sure I would remember it. I obviously did.

I'm not quitting the blog, not yet, even though it must look like I have abandoned it. The truth is, I've had ideas for posts in my head so many times, but by the time I think about actually writing, the ideas are gone or stale or I don't want to share my thoughts after all. Pretty lame.

I am quitting something. Or scaling back. I trained for the Dallas half marathon that was supposed to be in December. It was iced out. I'm sure you all saw the Dallas/Fort Worth area on the news, covered in ice. My kids didn't go to school for four days. Travis was on a silent retreat for the first 3 days of icepocalypse. It almost got really ugly in our house. But a child called me out on my attitude and I vowed to reset it and we actually had fun. Mostly.

So, quitting or scaling back. The weekend the race was canceled I signed up to run the Cowtown half marathon in Fort Worth in February. I had already tapered for the December race, and after it didn't happen, I let my running slide. I only ran once or twice a week and only three miles or so. I still had time to pick up my training. But this week I decided I didn't want to do that. So I changed my race entry to the 10k. I've never run an official 10k, so I'm guaranteed a PR. Ha. I just realized that I had no desire to commit to the long training runs right now. I've done a half marathon, twice, so it is not a matter of proving something to myself or anyone else. I'm enjoying my strength training a lot more these days. I can do a 10k without having to commit to running for an hour or longer more than once a week.

I gave myself permission to quit and I felt so relieved when I did. I'm not normally a quitter. I can be very stubborn about it, in fact. But sometimes the grace we so readily give others when they are struggling needs to be given to ourselves.

4 comments:

  1. Good for you! Excited to hear your PR! :)

    I am trying to gear up for a half here at the end of March, but man, not so sure I'm gonna make it... We'll see!

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  2. Sometimes it's OK to quit. I know you read Lora Lynn's wonderful Christmas post. And now I tell myself that all the time - if it makes me yell, it's not worth going ______, doing ________. It's OK to have fun and relax and not try to live up to everyone else's standard.

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  3. You are so right. Sometimes you just have to give up something. I've done that a few times with something that felt so big and felt such great relief. You cannot quit blogging!!!! I would miss your voice.

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  4. You may be quitting one thing, but it's to focus on something else. As a mama, it's hard to do everything. We're not quitters, we just realign our priorities to match the season of life. Do what makes you happy and what makes you feel better. Getting a little more time in my day always makes me happy!

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